Destiny vs will power

Well it was almost 6 years ago when I was chosen to perform at one of the most desired stages of the world in the united states! I felt as if a fading dream is finally taking a concrete shape. My happiness knew no bounds and I was elated like anything and my joy was overwhelming! That was the first time I ever stepped out of the country. My parents, relatives, friends, well wishers all of a sudden became aware of my presence. Here i dont mean the physical presence but the presence of my identity. I was engulfed by an illusion and so were my parents. My wings were on fire and i burnt with enthusiasm.

Henceforth started the heavy rehearsal schedules where every single part of my body cried with agony...but yet there was a strange satiation and experiencing this pain was just simply divine!! Throughout I had been a diligent student, and people still recall me as a multi faceted , talented young girl, who has a promising bright future!I always indulged into productive activities; learning a new form of art was the only means of recreation. As I grew up I had to choose my specialisation. A teacher once said U should not be like Jack of all traits and master of none, to which i replied "why can't I be jill of all traits and mistress of some,,, why do i have to choose one, when i am quite capable of multitasking?".My teacher just shoved me off! When this offer came of going to america to dance i knew nothing beyond dance.I was ready to keep anything as bait for it. Next 5 years were the glorious years of my life and I savoured each moment.

Who knew that illusions dissolve with time. It was very difficult in the beginning to digest this but somehow i had to gulp down this hard fact that generally the life curve of an artiste is like a bell shaped curve. There is a steady rise then there is the peak phase and then the curve bends down which marks the end of it. Now the cause behind this kind of curve can be categorised into two types, one which is natural or biological ,i.e, an artiste rises to prosperity, attains a peak of his career and weakens as he or she physically ages. The other type which is being imposed pertaining to political conspiracies mainly! Here I would like to mention an excerpt from Mahabharata, the great hindu epic! The teacher of the Pandavas and the kauravas who were rivals, Guru Dronacharya, did a similar kind of conspiracy! His favourite pupil was Arjuna the great pandava famous as an archer. Eklavya wanted to learn the art of archery from Drona but he savagely denied. Drona did not want any competitors for Arjuna..he was undonted in his decission so he rooted out every possibility of that. He asked for Eklavya's thumb as his price or GuruDakshina which eklavya gave without any hesitation.

In the present scenario as well, there are 1000s of Eklavya's who inspite of their talent and dedication fall victim to such conspiracies and personal family valour and personal gains! Is this what is expected after investing time, dedication, money, etc. Now at the prime of my youth i see my friends settling down and I am still at a crosroad, where my destination is unfocussed! Most people will be frustrated under such circumstances, but then that is the end of it. Just fulfilling normal biological duties of survival doesnot make us humane does it! Living with the system and the nature is known to non human living beings as well. What makes us humane is the ability to make a difference, an ability to put forth a challenge to the situation, an eagerness to fight back and the ceaseless power to stand up with head held high and foot firmly placed on the ground! So it doesnot matter to me whether i have succeeded or failed but what gives me solace is that I have not ever lost hope and I believe that my efforts will definitely be rewarded . May be not at the time when I want it, may be not in the way I want it, but yes, my efforts will not go in vain. I will strive, struggle, fight till my last breath!!!!